The Malaise and Florence

You got lucky, darling readers

Another one - two in one day.

I'm listening to the mental health discussion  around this virus and isolation.

Can I tell you something?
Its not just about those with mental health issues

The malaise began while I was in Kuwait
After a few weeks of solid effort
of running up stairs
Helping others
Reading
and so on

The effort faded
The day drifted by and I don't know where it went
Suddenly it was sundowners- thank god  for that!

BUt the  next day was the same
and each day merged, into the next and the one before.
What was I doing? I cannot think- I guess the same as the day before and the one after.
ONline teaching gave me a purpose
but that finished
and then?

It was time to get out of Kuwait
That took some neural action
and imposed some effort into the day..
The malaise is like a numbing of the brain
and little seems to matter
and the tiny little focus within your day is magnified into more.
Excitement came in the form of a flight out of Kuwait
to Melbourne
after ten weeks in air conditioning
and into another closed environment- a plane
Into an airport... environmental control
Skybus, closed environment and masked and gloved....escorted

Hotel, air conditioning
Closed, shut door
DO NOT LEAVE YOUR ROOM FOR ANY REASON
Ok
Its now Day 12.. Ask me what I've done?
The malaise is heavy now
It been settling for 12 weeks
PHysicality gives me a focus but without it
The malaise might win as I think it does for some
An organism cannot be in a closed environment with nothing but a television..
I feel like a pet
in a cage
Taken to the vet if I get sick, checked, fed.....
I'm lucky though....
I've been doing this for a while
but I miss another person.
Phew!
But I will survive.....
Cos I am tough!